Being stronger than distances
If you follow Dutchgram on Facebook, you’ll have noticed that this week I’ve shared some content that is very different from usual.
It’s a video from Jay Shetty about long distance relationships.
It touched me so much that I’ve started reflecting on my personal experience. Somehow I’ve felt the urgency to elaborate a bit on what I feel about it. For others, that may recognize themselves in this situation, and may find some comfort or hint for reflection. For me, to stay still for a moment and be grateful for that lovely boring everyday life together that now I luckily have.
My personal situation
I’ve been in a long distance relationship for three loooong (3!!!) years. I know very well the complexity and the uncertainty of that situation.
Beside the emotional component of the distance, there is the practical one that requires you to plan your time and your holidays carefully.
I remember the struggles to find a time slot that could be congenial for the both of us, those Skype calls often falling in a distant silence, the fights for the little attention, the discussions about the future, uncertain and maintaining distances.
The communication when being far was different from the communication when being together, and from the communication we have now. At some point, when you come home from work (tired at least), you do not have much to say. Being forced to find the right words in front of the screen (after struggling to find the person behind the other screen) is not comparable to getting a glass of wine, cooking a dinner together and then chilling some time on the couch.
But mainly, we were missing doing things together. We were missing the normal life together.
That time together
On the other hand, I remember the excitement of the countdown to meet each other. All the difficulties were payed off the times we could actually spend a period together. Especially when Cristian was visiting me, we could have that normal life together. Going to the supermarket and cooking together, going out with my new friends and showing him my normality was filling that gap in no-time. It was so easy to get back to us, after having been me and him for so long.
Getting used to the reverse change was not as fast, and every goodbye at the airport was more painful.
A complex balance
If any relationship requires a good balance between individuality and being-one-thing, this holds also for the long-distance relationships. But that balance is so much harder to find. You can’t count on quality time together and you do not want to be “too” independent, but you also do not want to live isolated the life you have here and now. It’s important for both to keep enjoying while giving attentions to the other at the same time.
I can’t talk for Cristian, but for me finding a good balance has not always been easy. Possibly I’ve been too individual at times (especially in the student and young-PhD time), and I’ve required too many attentions other times. I was sincerely craving for that message to arrive, for a spontaneous phone call or the request to Skype.
Ode to a modern era, with reservation
Luckily we live in 2000-and-something, and we can exploit the luxury of connecting anywhere and anytime with other people around the world.
I remember when I first came here I didn’t even have Whatsapp on my mobile phone, while now I can share pictures on the go to let others see what I see, have group calls with multiple people sitting somewhere else.
I am not sure I would have experienced (and I would experience nowadays) the distance in the same way. I am thankful for Skype, Whatsapp, Telegram or whatever method that connects with people I care about around the world.
On the other hand, with many communication methods, we also have as many social media. In my opinion, they can be dangerous in long distance relationships because they suffer from a (strong) positive bias. Somehow we can still see what people from your “previous life” and especially our long-distance partner do. We can get the wrong idea that they are living the good life while we’re on the couch wearing a pijama. We can get the idea that we are missing out something, and therefore get unhappy, envious, jealous, and convinced that the other person is living the better life, or does not care enough about us. But again we can’t preclude the other the right to live and enjoy life (especially, talking about myself, being the one to take the step and leave/sign a contract abroad).
I think the ony way to overcome this is investing as much as possible in the communication. Share the good and less good moments, make your effort to get the information out and through, although it is difficult.
Share also details that do not look that special, because these will make the other part of your life.
And if you ask me, no matter what, the traditional phone calls are the best (sorry Skype!)
Two persons living in different countries, speaking different languages, having different economic and housing situations, different types of support, subject to very different stimuli and challenges and everyday life, end up being different.
This was my strong statement and major fear. I was begging to try to communicate as much and as deeply as possible, to be able to keep that link tight, stronger than all differences in conditions.
I was afraid that one day, finally together, we would look at each other and do not recognize the other person anymore.
A happy ending
I realize now how negative all this can seem, and I want also to share the positive of it. I’ve struggled with the distance, yes. And very much. However, I am truly confident that everything happens for a reason and I do not regret for that difficult time. In a sense I also think it helped us grow to the persons we are now. And to the relationship we have now. Together. And close to each other.
I think we can now say we have managed to keep a sort of balance between being individuals and being a couple, we have enjoyed that time together that was so short and so special, we (at least I) have cried at the airport – when welcoming for excitement and when saying goodbye.
We have tried to communicate despite all and used the social media more or less conscientiously. While growing along different paths, we have tried to hold our hands to be able to recognize each other the day we would have “met” again. And finally, we have managed to make that distance disappear.
If you’re in a long distance relationship, send something or call your beloved one. You’re definitely stronger than distances.
But if you have the luck of sharing the couch with him/her, please squeeze each other in a strong hug.
Enjoy that lovely boring everyday life together.
So Beautiful…and so true…you touched deeply my heart! I really recognize myself and my life in your words… I am also living a long-distance relationship for 4.5 years between the Netherlands and Brazil. It was definitely not the easiest path..it was difficult many times, but I am so grateful that my partner, now future husband, despite all the skepticism, accepted this challenge, hold my hands and touched my heart even been so far apart. Of course, without skype, whatsapp, facebook, everything would be tremendously more difficult. But, we cannot dismiss the courage and the patience we had with each other throughout this long journey. Another similarity in our journeys, I also signed a contract in the Netherlands and my partner is now coming to join me here. Finally, the uncertainty that haunted me for very long is gone, and I am so happy preparing our future home in this country that I chose to live and which brought me friendships that I want to carry for the rest of my life and share with my husband.
I am very excited and happy to meet you this week, Marta, in the Evening Encounters. Thank you for being so generous in accepting the call of Serena.
Ps: One last coincidence, you posted this on my birthday last year! <3
Hi Priscilla, thank you for stopping by and leaving such a beautiful comment!
Indeed there are so many similarities eh, I feel you!
I am so happy to read you are also going to reconnect with your love (and future husband).
Life in another country is never easy, but being with the partner makes everything somewhat nicer at least and the Netherlands are also in my opinion a very good place to live in 🙂
Looking forward to meeting you in person upcoming Thursday (thank you for inviting me!) <3